my mental state
is a clouded storm
dark and windy
it’s hard to feel the
light sometimes
my body remains cold
and it hurts to be



stuck in memories
stuck in pain
nightmares flood
going insane
he comforts me back to sleep
i hold onto slight light
nobody can promise me
that i’ll be alright.

winter’s end seems close
and that’s the hope that i need
to keep getting back up
to stand on my feet
warm words and held hands
his smile thaws my scowl
i hope that i show the person
i know i can be.

my wings spread and i dry
out in the sun
i can’t help but cry
a release, so much tension
juggling too much
i feel like i’m cracking.


I’m not toxic

I’m broken

I asked you to hurt me

But I didn’t mean it

You pushed me away

And that was meant to be

I pushed them away

Because I feel like nobody

Can understand what I mean

But we all have pieces that resonate

In the same realm of color

We’re not so different

We just go through this life

Within our own separate

Horsedrawn carriage

We can communicate and attempt

To put this puzzle together

But instead we fight and we hurt

And we close our eyes.

Coiled Up

dim gaze
hair formation
psychedelic brainwaves
warm winter afternoon.

purple clouded mind
just a dream
mental formations
create my reality.

pacing about
the space provided
does space end
or are we trapped
i cannot tell.

what to wake for
another sunny day
warm embraces
dancing toes
i want to comprehend this
but it all slips away.


the span of love is like a pile of
one by one the snowflakes melt
sometimes there is hardly any substance left remaining
but snowfalls appear and supply more
coming and going
it’s up to the ones involved
to keep the snow alive and well
to keep an abundance or all will
forever melt
maybe that’s necessary for one
to grow, necessary growth
or one will be trapped and grow ill